I loathe myself for being what I am-- I am the bad person-- But
I do realize that-- Sorry for being so selfish-- So am I really bad?-- I didn’t do it
intentionally. Or did I? -- My skin is so oily and sticky-- Why does it stink, yuck-- How
can he be so forgiving-- I will try to be a better person-- I will have a haircut
this weekend-- I couldn’t be a good friend, maybe I was at times-- I can’t let him
hurt me-- I give up-- But I did try-- I am not sure of anything anymore-- Feel like
jumping off from a cliff-- I am fat, I know that-- Do things happen like this for
everyone-- How does it matter-- Is it always about me?-- My loved ones
are in pain-- I can’t share that with anyone nor I can do anything about it-- I
tried-- I am tired-- We are not talking anymore-- Oh those flowers are so beautiful-- When wasn’t it so? Oh yes-- I hate my
job--Most of them hate their jobs too-- How does it matter to me whether they hate
or love it-- I had a nightmare last night-- So? Well my life is also a nightmare
and I am living through it.-- I don’t know whether to be happy or sad-- Which is
better?-- Anyway,neither of it works out-- Coffee was good-- Aren’t you bored?-- You must
be-- Who cares-- He just makes me so angry-- To hell with the politicians and their daily drama-- I don’t want to
talk about it-- Got work-- cut copy paste --So what?-- It’s still a work-- And I get paid for it-- Why they choose others over me-- I am not good enough to be
anything for anybody-- I am so lonely-- I do pretend that I am happy to be alone-- I
always stress it’s being “alone” not “lonely”-- I hate myself-- I miss being myself-- I
miss him-- I miss her-- I miss all of them-- I am stressed-- I watched Dirty Picture
today--Take a bow Vidya, if your low-necked dress allows you to-- I am restless-- I
am angry-- It’s weird but yet simple-- Am I making it weird to feel special or pity
myself-- I love owls-- Read a nice forward message after a long time-- I am
insane-- I don’t know what to feel-- I don’t even know what I am feeling-- I don’t
know what I am writing.
Just now stepped out of Chaos (My mind), everything looks
fine. I am fine too.
4 comments:
Hi Dhara,
Hilight is "Got work-- cut copy paste --So what?-- It’s still a work-- And I get paid for it".
Why you are feeling lonely?
I don't know what I am rading!!!!!!!!! he he he..
Regards
Kartheek Yakkati
Ya,it's still a work. That's the only way to feel a bit good about myself.
I feel lonely because I am lonely!!!
Thanks for going through my post:)
You are not lonely, your soul is filled up with pleasent and very fresh thoughts... So how cloud you be lonely????
Cheers,
Kartheek Y
That's a nice way to put it...maybe I am not lonely:)
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